The long-awaited, heavily anticipated day finally arrived, the first day of school! Thankfully, both girls had a great day. We had some struggles last year with Meg’s teacher so she was worried heading in but came home thrilled.
Madison was ready to go at 7am this morning although the bus was not until 9am. She loved that she got 30 minutes alone with us between her bus and Megan’s. She was so great, bus came she looked at me waved and said “bye Mom” and up the steps she went. I knew she would be like that so I made her give me a big hug before we went down for the bus. She waved happily from the window as the bus pulled away, then I was alone. Walking home I might have shed a little tear but part was sad that my babies were growing up but the other was just how proud I am of who they are becoming!
Since I had to go to the bus stop this morning I got up and took a shower, my first full shower in two weeks which felt wonderful! I got dressed including a bra. I put on an old sport bra which is pretty close to the right size. I am still so swollen on the sides it is hard to tell what size I really am. Due to the incisions under my arms and the bruising I still have from the lipo, I can only express my feelings on wearing the bra as down right painful. And since I have to be a fully functioning member of society I must remain narcotic free during the day.
Frank stopped at VIctoria Secrets yesterday on his way home as a surprise. I have not been able to shop there in years due to size. I still have the steri strips so I will save my new fancy bra for a few days. I cleaned out my drawer yesterday and in doing so realized I was a 40 DDD prior to surgery. No wonder I had such back issues! I know that each day will be a little better.
I need to get my stamina back up. I am wiped out! Bus stops, laundry and some other things around the house, dinner and soccer practice should not do me in like this. The highlight of my day was getting home taking a vicodine and getting my bra off…ahh the little things in life!
I think today is a lay low kind of day. Hanging at the house not planning to do too much. Even though I just got out of bed, I would love to turn right back around and climb back in.
Between cleaning up the house to get ready for Megan’s birthday on Friday, her actual birthday on Saturday and back to school shopping Sunday, I am just wiped out. With the next surgery around the corner, I grabbed the opportunity that a Sunday provides and had my husband help out with the clothes shopping. I have to admit 3 full days of activity was something I was not fully ready for. I definitely see a nap in my future. We also all stayed up to watch the closing ceremonies of the olympics.
Wearing a sport bra for 2 of those days was another thing I was not prepared for. I bought an extra large so it would not be too tight, no underwire of course but I could not wait to get it off once we got home on Sunday! The “girls” are very sore as is my chest and right under my arms. I can not wait until the boobs are finished..these square bitches are really annoying!
So when I was at the doctors the other day he reaffirmed that I am under no circumstances to wear a bra until at least the next time I see him in 3 weeks. No Bra…last time I can say that I could get away with walking around town (not that I am going anywhere right now), without being ticketed or poking myself in the eye was like maybe when I was 12?
Heading into the surgery I was a 40DD. I had thought about reduction for a while but once this process started it was like “all in”. We agreed that we would be going smaller but he could not guarantee a size per say and that we would need to “tweak” the initial work which would be done at the time of the nipple reconstruction.
So the no bra thing is really is not a problem at all for a few reasons, first they are still so swollen they are like annoying (yet non moving) bricks on my chest. Second, I am not going anywhere fast right now, and third they are well, not at all “boob” shaped. They are clearly different sizes and I swear they point in different directions. They strike me as more square. I will need another small procedure probably in about 4-5 weeks back in the main hospital OR. my Surgeon say it will be about a 2 hour process where he will hide the flap, build new nips and liposuction the new bricks boobs. The plan is that since I was so large anyway, to utilize the extra skin that would have been cut away in surgery. Instead of having to harvest skin for the new nips, he will gather what is forming around the new flaps as the swelling goes down and make the nip out of it , at the same time hiding the flap and creating a nice “boob” shape. The doctor says they will be lovely when finished and not to worry. Honestly, I am not at all worried. I fully trust in my plastic surgeon and the “boobie vision” he has painted for me. For now I have been hanging out in a tank top which I pin the last drain to but then put a baggy button down over top. It works.
Anyway, yesterday was a down day. I really spent the day just lying around and napping. Frank took the girls out for a few hours in the afternoon which was great. I had no real energy or inclination to do anything more than hang out in my size smaller bike shorts. Sleeping is improving (still with assistance). Almost made it through the night. Closest I have come anyway!