And it begins, the travel soccer season is off to a running start with a 2 day tournament. Megan is very excited. She is starting and was told she would play at least the entire first half as full back. There are 2 games today and at least one game tomorrow 2 if they do well. It should be a fun day!
At the beginning of the week it was questionable as to whether I would go to the game. Thankfully I am feeling better! I am worried about the car ride but will take my pain meds and cross my fingers. The games are early which is good and there is only a 1 hour gap between the games. We should be home by noon in time for a nap!
I had to call the doctor’s office yesterday for more pain meds. I am not out yet but it hit me that it is a holiday weekend and no one would be around until Tuesday. I did not want to get into a situation where I could not deal with but thankfully we do not need to worry about that!
So the Disney Planning update of the day. One that I think will be a favorite for all. The day will start with breakfast at Cinderella’s castle. We did this last time we were in Disney and the girls had a blast! The day will end with Franks wish list item, the luau . I am happy with everything so it should be a great day!
Time to get moving to soccer..looking forward to getting out of the house and into the air for a few hours. This is my first outing since the last survey. Fingers crossed!
SO I did the first round of exercises that I found on Livestrong.com last night. I was very careful…did only a handful of each (3-5). There were 5 exercises attempted. One of the funnier things happened at the start..getting to the ground in the first place. I stood there for a second remembering my falling flat into bed experience from just a few days ago and decided my plan of attack. My girls were by my side to “help” but I thought I would squash them if something were to go wrong so I told them to stand clear. I was very proud of myself..got to my knees, turned carefully to my bottom then basically to my side to lay flat on my back. Once down I thought “well that’s enough for today “. But I pushed on. It is something when you realize lifting a stick over your head or just stretching your elbows to the floor would be difficult. The girls cheered me on and I felt great afterward to finally feel like we were moving forward!
Getting up from the floor was another thing all together. Since I have no core strength I am basically stuck on my back. When I was finished Madison says “I will call daddy”. NO! I can do this! So when Frank placed the bed into the family room, he tied these workout straps to the frame thinking that they would help me get in and out. They never worked..they had too much give. As I laid there stuck on my family room floor, I remembered the straps…”Madison, hand mommy the green cord..please” . It was something of pure heroic maneuvering (alright maybe not but I was dam proud of myself!) I was able to pull myself to my side and closer to the end of the bed which I could then use to get up..I was on my feet! The girls ran and told their father as if what they had just witnessed was something of pure fairy tale…I think they are proud of me .
The tired (I assume) comes from my medicine changes. I have been working to get away from the Oxy for several days but was still taking one an hour or so before bed. Last night I went with a vicodine after my “workout” but went to be pretty clear..and laid there, tossed, turned. Then I had a pain (which I have had on the left side between my breasts). I pointed it out to the doctor who says it is normal is the connection point for the flap and not to push on it. First response was to grab a pill. Instead I took a motrin and put an ice pack on my chest. Eventually I dozed for a little while but running on just a few hours. I know it will work itself out and is part of the process.
On the agenda today, more exercise and maybe, just maybe our first venture out in the car. We will see how the day unfolds.
So after a weekend of taking it easy, this morning the girls and I headed out for a nice walk for me and bike ride for them. It is already pretty warm out but it really is a nice way to start the day when for the rest of it you are basically trapped. We came in, grabbed some nice cold water and I am sitting quietly. My abdomen does not really cause much discomfort anymore. The only problem there is the pure weakness which I realize will take time to rebuild.
The issue is with the boobs. I am still not allowed to wear a bra. I honestly don’t know if wearing one would even help…I would probably just complain about have to wear it all of the time. The odd shape and uneven size is a factor..I still feel like I am growing boobs under my arms especially on the left side. That one is still at least a full size if not larger than the other one. The right one though for some reason tends to ache more. Go figure. I still have some oxy’s left but don’t want to take them unless pain is really bad. On the other hand, Tylenol/Motrin are not always enough to deal with the pain/ache. I see the doctor tomorrow. I want to ask if there is something else he can give me that is not as strong as the oxy but has more kick than the Motrin. Funny I feel strange asking for more pain meds but I guess that shows that I am not some pill head…if I were guess I would not care about asking.
So the bike shorts I had been wearing have all gotten too loose..which is pretty cool to be honest. I bought an actual abdominal wrap to keep as tight as possible. My girls are great because the both grab an end and help me get it on even and tight. They really have been wonderful helpers!
It is strange to think about, 4 weeks ago today I was still in surgery with my bilateral prophylactic mastectomy. I would emerge in terrible pain I remember complaining about my shoulder the most. From what I understand, I was on the table for a bit over 12 hours with my arms straight over my head…in my own head I figure I was kind of supermanish. Drains seeming like they were everywhere. Monitors that would not stop beeping…oxygyn continually because I seemed to forget to breath from time to time with all the pain meds. The joys of being surrounded by nurses 1-2 times a day for my “shift and raise” that was always a good time.
To be where I am now just 4 weeks later is an amazing testament to modern medicine.
I have my fingers crossed for my appointment tomorrow. I so hope that we get the date scheduled for the final phase of this process. Please please!!!!!