Tag: prophylactic mastectomy

Pumpkins and Potter

Hanging with my girls today carving pumpkins and watching Harry Potter movies.  We have seen them all several times but it is a ritual now.  We start with the first movie, settle in with popcorn and hot chocolate and snuggle under a big blanket.  It takes months to complete them all since it is not an every weekend thing.  Once we complete them all, we start over.  Just some nice, relaxed time with my girls.  Right now is Deathly Hallows Pt1.

The big project of the morning was the carving of my first ever Hello Kitty pumpkin.  Madison is obsessed with Kitty.  We printed the stencil from a website.  It took almost 2 hours to complete and a very cramped hand but we had success! I sprayed it with Aqua Net hair spray after I was finished in an attempt to preserve it for a while.  Aqua net can get ink out of carpets, seal a hair style for weeks so I was hoping it would extend the life of our pumpkin.

 

 

 

 

 

I also plan on cooking tonight.  Not just a quick dinner like normal but instead a nice roast beef, sliced mushrooms maybe a healthy salad.  I love the smell of a roast cooking in the oven.  I always have. With all of the running we do, it is nice to have a sit down dinner as often as possible.

Not as busy this week. I see the gastroenterologist on Friday.  Now there is something to look forward to.

 

Temper temper

Do you ever have those days?  You know the ones where you just want to kick and scream and tell everyone to go to hell?  Everyone wants something, pulling this way and that,  but your head says, don’t rock the boat, try to keep the peace.  In the end, everyone walks on egg shells and my headache grows. Is “the peace” worth it if there is always a set of rules that everyone must play by before a conversation can even start?

I don’t know, maybe it was the mastectomy, maybe the way people acted/reacted to me and the surgery or maybe it was the pathology reports that flashed before my eyes how quickly things can change.  I feel like I am looking at things differently, reacting differently.  I am not sure if this is good or bad and for a person who has a need to be  in control it is definitely a little unsettling.

Never ending medical appointments

So I had the appointment with the gynecologist today…always a thrill!  It is interesting telling my Prophylactic Mastectomy story to people who are not aware.  According to her,  records are often not sent until you are released from care.  Since I am still officially undergoing treatment my GYN had no update since the mammogram of March 2011 that started it all.  She was a very interested audience.  The person I see at the office is one of the nurse practitioners.  I have gone to her for years, much easier to get an appointment that trying to see one of the doctors.  She was the one who was there the day I had my miscarriage and she was the one I saw following the birth of both of my beautiful girls.

She added to the chorus of folks who say how brave I am.  She also added to the list of those who want me to have further tests. She agrees with the colonoscopy and not to be out done by other doctors,  feels I should also go for a pelvis ultrasound. I feel like I am some pawn in a wired medical game, I se you mastectomy and raise you one colonoscopy and a pelvic ultrasound.  So if everything were to go perfect, I have at least 5 more medical appointments minimum before we can close this chapter of my life, and when does life go perfect?

The connection between breast and ovarian cancer is known.  Can I say clearly how F-ing tired I am of tests and doctors?  Of course I will go but think I am going to hold off making an appointment until next week.  I hope to get a date nailed down for the last of the breast procedures before making more appointments. I sure hope it is the last!