I saw someone today that I have not seen in a few months other than a drive by in a car accompanied with a quick wave. Right around my surgery her father passed away so her own life was very chaotic. I ran out to get the mail this afternoon without a coat and this friend was driving by and stopped. The normal niceties were exchanged followed by a wonderful statement, “you look fabulous”. What a nice thing to be told! The fact that I was wearing dirty sweatpants, an ill-fitting shirt with hair pulled back since I had been cleaning all day made the comment all the more special.
My surgery seems like a lifetime ago, something I never thought I would say. I have made a full recovery. I still have some numbness in my stomach and in the noobs which may always be there. I have a terrible time with sit-ups but if I am being honest, I could not do many before having the DIEP surgery.. None of these things has any effect on daily life.
I see the scares everyday. I think sometimes I allow this to affect my mental health. I get a little down, excuse to have the extra snack and skip the work out. A kind soul offering a totally unsolicited (but very welcome and extremely kind) comment goes a long way to reminding myself that the scares are only on the surface. They are a sign of a great fight and should be seen as almost a trophy. (alright, maybe trophy is a stretch). If nothing else it is a little boost to remind me of how far I have come.
Interesting when I see it broken down into days, 141 days since I made the radical life changing decision to take charge of my life and have the bilateral prophylactic mastectomy. Three surgeries, lots of pain and some whining later I am almost through the tunnel.
Yesterdays surgery went well. Although I had to arrive at the hospital at 5:30, I was bumped due to an emergency before me. I was not taken back until about 9am. Although I was a bit frustrated due to having to arrange for care for the girls etc, I took it in stride remembering my time in the ICU and the possibility that I could have been that emergency. I breezed through recovery with no issues at all, thankfully! The last time was a real issue! Because things went so well there we were home and laying in my own bed by 1:30. Not too bad!
I am pleased with what we did yesterday. The Newpple issue seems to be corrected and the girls seem to be much more even. I do not think they are perfect but then again I do not think any woman’s are so I am pleased with them. He did revise some of the scares that were really off which was a negotiated middle ground between what I proposed and where he was so again I am pleased. He also did a minor cut along the abdominal scare where I have had an irritating lump. He thought it may have been a suture that did not desolve but instead turned out to be an area of scare tissue that had formed. Although the incision point is sore, I already feel better having the lump out!
So with all of that said, barring some strange outcome from the healing I have to go through over the next days, I have achieved a level of peace with the “girls” and see no reason why I would need to have any further surgeries on them! I follow up with the Surgeon on Wednesday.