Alright…three weeks out of surgery and WAY over did it today. God I am sore. Stupid really but at the time I just wanted to feel normal…feeling way far from normal right now! Very Frustrated and hurting!
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A glimpse of normal
A little over 3 weeks out of surgery and I am finally starting to feel somewhat normal, kind of anyway. I have full mobility of both arms but if I were to do too much with them I grow tired very quickly. The boobs are still very sore. Thankfully the weeping has stopped. That does make me feel better if for nothing more than mentally happy. My abdomen is a bit tight. The incision itself continues to heal wonderfully except for a small section in the front. I had a mishap with my pants where I pulled them up or down a little harshly and hit a scab…now it just continues to get irritated. I just need to be more careful I guess.
My energy level is improving but if I do too much everything starts to ache pretty quickly. A little more each day I guess. The girls and I went out for a walk again this morning. The weather is beautiful today high 70’s not too humid. They rode their bikes while I walked. We made it around half the neighborhood…like 10 times the size of the walk we did the other day. I am extremely sore but it is a good sore and I took a pill. I think well worth it for all of us. The girls got some good exercise out in the fresh air and for the first time in weeks I felt human walking around my neighborhood! I will definitely need a nap today! 🙂
Now the girls are in the pool for an hour before lunch..only an hour because that is about all I can handle watching them. Better than nothing. I harvested some cherry tomatoes from our now thriving garden. Now I am sitting…I am wiped out. It is nice seeing the girls being active kids today instead of just sitting around with me! I grabbed the camera because it was good to get a few pics..see what the beginning of normal looks like.
One week until the next doctor’s appointment. I look forward to it actually because I think we will be discussing when we will be ready for the final phase. I can’t wait!
For now..time for a nap!
Motherhood
The worst thing about just sitting around with nothing but time are the thoughts that just continue to swirl through my head. I have mentioned my mother several times in this blog. Although I loved her very much, I have tried to be a very different mother to my children than she was to us. She was a single parent from the time that I was a baby. I know it was not easy for her.
Growing up I don’t really ever remember hearing the words “I love you”. I know that she loved me and I loved her. But it is nice to hear the words right? I remember when Megan was born. I was so thrilled. See I was a career girl and was never going to have children, that is until I had Megan and resigned from my career :-). I could not have loved her anymore. I just loved to hold her, hug her and kiss her. I used to just sit and kiss her head…even told her tiny little body that there would be a million kisses up there by the time she was one. I also made her a promise that a day would not pass when I would not tell her how much I loved her! The same held true when Madison was born and as they have both gotten a little older I encourage them to talk to us and ask questions. This is often very interesting as other also find. Out of the blue whatever is on Madison’s mind comes out…sometimes a little awkward but the only way to learn.
By no means am I a push over quit the countrary I am actually very strict. But I do not want my girls to be afraid of anything and I do not want them to ever feel that they missed out!
Decisions for my Family 