Thoughts, rants and ideas of a woman, wife, mother and post bilateral prophylactic mastectomy patient
I am so happy, today the last of the drains came out! So much more comfortable. I have my next appointment in 2 weeks to discuss the next stage. The girls are still at the shore with my sister so the house is quiet. I miss them but I have enjoyed the peacefulness. I have napped, watched some bad TV, napped, walked a bit and napped some more. It has really felt good!
My sister sent these pictures from the beach. Looks like everyone is enjoying the last few days.
This may be the first time I have ever done a double post. I received my Pathology report today finally. I must start with there was NO cancer as expected Thank God! With that said, it was also a very scary call. As I stated earlier in the blog, I decided to have the Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy due to the findings of Atypical lobular hyperplasia mixed with my mothers history which resulted in a 50-50 chance of cancer myself. SO, we expected to find this in the path reports.
What we did not expect was what was also found. Lobular Carcinoma In Situ.
“Lobular carcinoma in situ (LCIS) is technically not cancer; but, because it is a marker for the development of all types of invasive and non-invasive breast cancers, LCIS is often thought of as a form of breast cancer.”
Holy Shit! It has been a day filled with emotion….obviously thrilled that I am cancer free! BUT…one of the options given to me was increased screening blah blah.
“Lobular carcinoma in situ usually has no symptoms. Many times, it’s not even detected by routine screening mammograms. This is because, unlike other breast cancers and related conditions, LCIS does not result in the formation of calcium deposits in certain breast cells.:”
For anyone who is faced with the high risk decisions to have the BPM or not….do it! Had I waited another year or two? How different could things have been for my family? I am blessed to not have to answer that question!
It is so outrageously hot! I would love to get outside and take a walk but not going to happen.
It has been a very pleasant morning. I laid in bed until 8am…(my girls are typically up by 6:30 ish). Had a leisurely cup of coffee and quietly sitting back on my bed typing this. I did talk to the girls who are having a wonderful time with their aunt. I am also having a wonderful time all alone. Is that bad? I feel kind of guilty but it is true. Today the Disney channel will not be on my TV but instead will be replaced by the True Blood episodes I am behind on. Don’t get me wrong, I love Disney as a matter of fact booked the rest of our Disney trip reservations on Sunday. Too many Phineas and Ferb episodes starts to make me crazy.
There is one thing that I did not expect to learn through this experience and that is who will really be there for you when needed. There are people who I expected to be “there” but I have not even heard from..not a call, text, e-mail, note on Facebook, card or even owl (Harry Potter reference for those into Harry). Then on the other side we have had people who have gone above and beyond anything I ever could have expected. I don’t want this to sound wrong, I mean I am not a materialistic person. A card or simple text shows someone is thinking about you and cares. When everything on you body hurts, it helps just to know that someone cares. I was having a bad day one day and a box arrived with the cutest little mini yellow rose bush…totally changed my day! Food dropped off from wonderful people have allowed my overstretched husband to be able to focus on myself and the girls. The many cards and thoughts sent from my friends here provided a smile during otherwise unpleasant time.
For all of you who have been there thank you from the bottom of my heart I love you all. For those who have not, well…whatever.
Decisions for my Family 