On my continued search for “what I want” I think I have begun to develop some thoughts maybe even a list.
1-I would like to worry less about well everything. In my head I am fully aware that I can not control everything, even most things. This is what causes the worry. I wish I could live life and just allow it to happen. This will require work!
2-I want to smile more. 2012 was a rough and at times very painful year. The year leading up to it was possibly even more scary since that was the year of abnormal biopsy and breast MRI. Now with the pelvic Ultrasound results, I am heading for yet another biopsy Thursday. I feel like I have been under a cloud for a long while now and am ready to attempt to outrun it! Although the outcome has been good to date, it has been a long and stressful time that affected my entire family. I believe our Disney trip is a big part of helping this change this mood and we are all looking forward to this trip! The other night we started to pack, a little more each day The guest room is filling up with small piles just waiting to be put into a suitcase. Disney is the happiest place on Earth, we can’t wait!
3-I would love to be able to pay off my credit cards but since that won’t happen anytime soon I will again focus on #1.
This of course is not an all-inclusive list. It instead is just the beginning of one that I expect will grow and change in the coming weeks/months.
With the end of the year approaching, everywhere you turn you see recaps. I did a medical recap not too long ago and quit honestly am not too interested in reliving this year. Instead I am looking fully forward to what I hope will be a better year.
Making a statement like that always makes me pause for a second because of how close I was to cancer (according to the pathology reports). I had the bilateral prophylactic mastectomy to prevent cancer since I was high risk but until we received those results showing cancer markers, well we had no clue just how close I was. So, with that said the end results made 2012 a good year I suppose and I guess I should recognize that good.
The hope for 2013, well they are filled with no surgery, no medical scares and good times with my family. I do need to get through the follow-up Ultrasound next week to check on the complex cyst. Hopefully that shows that it took care of itself and onward we will move.
One super bright spot that we have all been looking forward to for some time is our trip to Disney World! We are in the home stretch and can begin an official countdown in the next week or so. My girls do love official countdowns :-). We are all really looking forward to this trip! We are staying at The Animal Kingdom Villas-Kidani, right over the Savannah. How thrilled with the girls be seeing the animals come close to the balcony.
Since we are staying in Disney we also did the meal package. It is nice going and knowing that almost everything is prepaid. We will be dinning with the Princesses, Mickey and crew, Chip and Dale and at the new Be Our Guest Restaurant. Planning this trip, making the dinning reservations were a nice distraction while I was recovering from surgery. Finally coming close to the actual experience knowing how much we are all looking forward to it, well what can I say that Disney does not? It is the happiest place on earth!
And it begins, the travel soccer season is off to a running start with a 2 day tournament. Megan is very excited. She is starting and was told she would play at least the entire first half as full back. There are 2 games today and at least one game tomorrow 2 if they do well. It should be a fun day!
At the beginning of the week it was questionable as to whether I would go to the game. Thankfully I am feeling better! I am worried about the car ride but will take my pain meds and cross my fingers. The games are early which is good and there is only a 1 hour gap between the games. We should be home by noon in time for a nap!
I had to call the doctor’s office yesterday for more pain meds. I am not out yet but it hit me that it is a holiday weekend and no one would be around until Tuesday. I did not want to get into a situation where I could not deal with but thankfully we do not need to worry about that!
So the Disney Planning update of the day. One that I think will be a favorite for all. The day will start with breakfast at Cinderella’s castle. We did this last time we were in Disney and the girls had a blast! The day will end with Franks wish list item, the luau . I am happy with everything so it should be a great day!
Time to get moving to soccer..looking forward to getting out of the house and into the air for a few hours. This is my first outing since the last survey. Fingers crossed!