Perceptions and opinions

If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, infinite. -William Blake

While I was still with my old job I was constantly told that “perception is reality”. I always hated that. Someone else has a thin skin therefor I am “harsh”? But in the context in which it was used at the time it did make sense. To be honest I was young and I was often a bit harsh. Thankfully age and motherhood have smoothed many of the more rough edges.

I have found myself involved with several different conversations over the last few days where I am left reflecting back on those words. Is perception reality? If someone’s “perception” is based solely on what others say doesn’t that make it an opinion based on hearsay? What is very sad if the vigor in which those “opinions” are shared and defended. Get a few strong enough personalities together and an entire image can be painted for others without any real fact. Reputations affected and stress levels raised all in the name of advancing the opinions of others who may have had a bad experience or a personal agenda.

Sometimes we can not control the situation, and coming from a person who loves control, I know how frustrating that can be! I have come to realize that lack of control is not always bad, I have actually grown to enjoy it (sometimes 🙂 ) I do not know nor can I control what the future holds. I find it best to allow things to play out as they will and adjust accordingly. Life is just too short to spend it worrying about what if, especially if you have absolutely no say in the matter anyway! An open mind goes a long way.

My last day in Kindergarten

Where has the year gone? Today was my last day helping out in Madison’s class. Instead of the normal writing assignment, the kids painted butterfly wings. The other Mom who rotated weeks with me all year was also there. We met up in the office by chance as we were signing into the school. The Kindergarten building is actually made up of 2 different buildings due to additions over time. We have to sign in at the main building, then walk to the next and buzz in. As we were signing in a massive storm was rolling in. Of course as soon as we walked out of the door the skies opened up. We did not have to go far but I am sure the sight of the two crazy middle-aged woman running down the ramp was a sight to be seen.

It was a nice day with the children. As we walked in the class, a little soggy, the kids all thanked us in Kindergarten unison. Madi’s teacher even gave us a little thank you gift, totally unnecessary! If she only knew how much I have enjoyed the time in the class! Her teacher was a wonderful young woman, I can only hope we run into more like her along the way!

I took Madison home with me which was a big wish list item for her. Thankfully by the time we left the storm had rolled through. I can not believe that next week she will officially be pre-first grader! My baby is growing up.

On a totally different note, Megan’s piano recital is next week. Her father recorded her this morning so she could see herself. I still remember her little baby fingers banging on the red plastic piano with multi colored keys as a baby. You have come a long way Megan! Just beautiful!

A very special ending

Endings, often emotional, never repeatable. Some we are thrilled to see happen, others we wish would never come. This week I have 2 endings in process, one fitting in each category.

Wednesday I scheduled what I hope to be the last surgery I have for a very long time. After the multiple ultrasounds it is time to have those pesky uterine polyps out. This is expected to be a quick and relatively pain-free procedure. I am also able to have it done at the surgery center which I am pleased about, having more than my fill of hospitals last year. This is an ending I have been looking forward to for months! It does not occur until mid-July but at least it is on the schedule.

An ending that I am not so happy to see will happen in just a few hours. It is the “very special endings” ceremony at Madison’s school. They do not have a graduation ceremony for Kindergarten. Instead they have this little gathering where they will sing, recite a poem and receive a certificate. My baby is heading to first grade soon. Amazing how quickly time flies!

They have been practicing for weeks. She comes home and hides in her room so I can not see what she is doing. Two days ago we had to spend time picking the “perfect” outfit. A pretty floral dress and her new “high heel” sandals. For such a rough and tumble little girl, it always amazes me how much of a little diva she can become when she wants to dress up. I guess the balance is good…god help me lol!

I am very proud of her growth this year. She went to school reading just a few sight words and she ends reading small chapter books. Her math skills are off the charts and the thoughtful questions that she poses to me on a very regular basis at times throw me for a loop.

Madison is a wonderful, smart, beautiful little girl and I could not be more proud!