As a pre teen many young girls with visions of the perfect cleavage will take matters into their own hands and add to the bounty that nature provides or in some cases fails to provide. My own young girls talk often of the day they will have boobs. Let’s be honest, in the view of society, they are the “visual” things that makes a woman. MIllions spent each year on the perfect bra, marketing telling every woman that is what makes you “sexy”.
For well over a year after the mastectomy and DIEP surgery, once I could finally wear a bra, I was limited to one that was padded. Even after a year of healing, scars can still cause a good amount of discomfort. As I would look in the mirror I felt like some teenager who was trying to increase what nature had provided. The difference here as we all know is that what nature provided to me had plans to attack. What I have instead is created by amazing plastic surgeons.
A few weeks ago I decided it was time. The perfect bra, no lining, no padding. For the first time in almost a year and a half I can look in the mirror and see only me. I am comfortable in my own skin. I am happy with the reflection in the mirror, other than the few pounds I could stand to lose 🙂 but hey who doesn’t right?
Everyday since July 2, 2012 there has been a “new” something. Since that date I have achieved many milestones. I remember first being able to finally sit up without assistance, and the first time walking around the block with the girls. There was lots of pain, many tears and worlds of relief knowing I made the right decision. This milestone may not seem like much to many but to me, it is about comfort and confidence and therefore huge. And shopping in VIctoria’s Secret again in pretty cool also 🙂
Came into the Blog today and realized I had hit 7000 views. What does this mean? Not much really but it is a cool number! For those who stopped in to actually read something I had written thank you! For those adolescent boys searching some type of “boobie” title and happened across here…well HAHAHAHA surprise!
The way I see it, life is really about making a few good decisions at the right time. For me I will say my job change was a very important decision made. I took a significant pay cut and loss of title in doing so. I was mocked by many around me. I was even counter offered but in my heart I felt what I was doing was right. In the end, I achieved so much more, a higher title and worlds more money. It allowed me to live the professional life I always thought I wanted. It also allowed me to open my mind up to other aspects of my life, the possibility of having a family.
Changing course in my life and having the girls was a huge decision for me which may be the greatest one I have ever or will ever make. My girls are my world! There is no title available that could fill my life as much as seeing my girls grow and learn.
I had to go to the dentist the other day. It was the first place where I have had to announce my recent surgery. As I sat down, the hygienist asked cheerfully, “any medical changes since last visit?” Oh sure!
She had just turned 40. I know that because the rest of the appointment we talked about boobs. She was very interested in my story . What I found interesting is the fact that she also had a friend with breast cancer and a script for a mammogram yet had not made an appointment. She told me that her doctor had ordered it as a baseline when she had her appointment a few months ago and had just not gotten around to making the mammo appointment. Did I think it was really that important? My eyes must have done something because she sat back allowing me to sit up to answer. I had my first mammo in my early 20’s. Do I think it is important…ugh hell yes!
Decisions, what to eat, wear, is getting a mammogram today really that important?
Having a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy I am sure will turn out to be at the top of my good decisions list. With the pathology results, I don’t even need to list why.
I almost want to call my dentist office to see if she has made her appointment yet. Had my mother gone earlier? But you can’t go back you can only look at all of the information at hand and make what you hope will be the right decision, one that 20 years down the road makes that list, the list of the few great decisions I made in my life.