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Normal.?!

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Normal.

Woke the girls this cloudy, damp morning and started the normal preparation for school routine.  I hugged them both as they got out of bed.  Breakfast eaten, teeth brushed lunch packed, school bags readied.

Normal.

I hugged them both in the kitchen. We looked for Ernie our shelf Elf, he left a note last night.  The girls loved it.  I hugged them.

Normal.

We walked Megan to the bus stop, I hugged her as she got on the bus.  I stood with the other Mom’s..starring at the bus, I waved goodbye.

Normal.

A few minutes later stood at the bus stop with Madison.  I hugged her tightly. The bus arrived, I kissed her head as she stepped on, I stood and watched her get into her seat then waved.

I came in side feeling empty.  Pulled up FB to pictures of babies from CT.  Closed the computer.  Turned on the TV to a press conference from CT.  I grabbed the remote and flipped on Netflix.  Now watching “Weeds”..somehow seems appropriate.

There is nothing normal about today.

11 days post BPM

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Good Friday morning and just amazed when I look at a calendar to realize it really has been 11 days.  I could try to say they have been a breeze but that is not true.  It has been a bit of a roller coaster over the last few days. Some tears, laughs, mood swings, yelling oh hell just like normal right?

So where are we so far today?  To start with not nearly as cranky as I have been able to sleep better the last 2 nights.  Thank you valuim.  Next I have been wearing my biker shorts, hmm do not remember if I blogged about that.  When I was at the follow-up on Wednesday, my hubby asked about an abdominal binder.  The doctor advised that biker shorts would provide the same service cheaper and easier.  He stated that basically the tighter I could handle being bound the happier I would be with the end result of the tummy side of our surgery.  It is fascinating, I had to send Frank out for the next size down which I will move to today.  Even with who knows how many stitches in, it is the flattest my stomach has been since at least prior to child-birth!

I am still very sore but the pain is settling for the most part.  I am almost able to lift my left arm completely above my head with a slight strain my right is a little behind.  A little every day.  I will not need any type of rehab for this just time.

I still struggle to get into and out of bed.  I can get in with no help just a LOT of moaning but getting out sometimes I feel like a turtle stuck on my back.  I can eventually find my way out but a slight tug from anyone going by is often a welcome assist.

My girls have been wonderful!  Running the laundry, running and emptying the dishwasher and just being so great keeping my water full etc!  I feel bad that they are cooped up with me.  Yesterday my sister came so they were able to play in the pool while I napped.. a big win for all!  They will have a sleep over with her next week.  She lives down the shore and loves the beach.  I find the beach to be a big disgusting mud pit so it will be the first time my girls will ever go. It will provide me with some quiet and them with some much deserved fun activity!

That’s it for now.  Going to go enjoy my morning coffee.  Everyday gets better.  To sum it up, I wish I could be running around doing my normal daily things.  But, I can’t.  To look at where I am 11 days out of such a massive surgery..well it is amazing!