I have been wandering around trying to pass time until the surgery (I actually counted 67 days ugh!) For the last few days I have allowed “victim” thoughts to crowd my head. This is not like me..I have never been a victim nor will I ever be! I am not sick. I decided that the more I allow myself to get bogged down in my own thoughts, the more down I feel.
So time to snap out of it..or at least do some things to try. Instead of thoughts of mastectomy, surgery and recovery I think it is time to take a look at what is right in front of me and be grateful!
Today I am grateful for :
- Both of my girls having a great day at school
- Being on the field to see my baby play in her second softball game…and being there to kiss her boo-boo when she fell down
- The extra hugs before bed from both
- Hearing “I love you mommy”!
May not seem like much but to me the world! I guess sometimes it is good to remind yourself…all in all good day!