Bright sun and blue sky

It is a beautiful day today!  I am definitely one of those people who’s mood is affected by weather.  Yesterday we were at the park for the opening day parade and it was cold!  Very overcast and cloudy but thankfully the rain held off til late.

A good time was had by all at the park but of course it just would not be a family event without someone getting sick.  Madison woke up with all signs of sinus/ear infection.  SHe was so excited about the parade I had to let her go and march but as soon as the actual parade was over we separated from Frank and Meg and went to the doctor.

So I recently find myself wondering if I am supposed to tell everyone that I am about to have surgery.  As I stand at the bus stop in the morning with neighbors and we chit-chat about this and that.  Am I supposed to drop in there a hey by the way I am having a mastectomy?  Or just disappear one day for a little bit?  Possible to get through without some people even noticing or do the after explanation.  I almost want to make up business cards with the blog address and just say read this because I prefer not to talk about it. I do not mind blogging about it at all but when you discuss it with people they get that look…it just gets exhausting.

Today I am thankful for Madison feeling better and bright shinning sun!  Looking forward to a great day with my family.

“Go find your smile again”

I am sitting here watching City Slickers. I just mentioned it the other day and in flipping channels to find  something to watch, I find it.  Seemed too coincidental so I just had to watch!

Kids already in bed active karate class tonight for them and very busy day tomorrow.   Opening day for softball at the park.  Parade, pictures and BBQ.  For Megan it is old hat but this is the first year for Madison so pure excitement.

I am going to sit and enjoy my movie but wanted to keep my list going.

Today I am grateful for:

  • the birds that chirped happily in the yard
  • The pool cover removal setting up months of swimming fun for the family
  • the look of pure excitement on Madi’s face thinking about the parade tomorrow
  • Hearing “I love you mommy” as I put the girls to bed…..I love this one so will be a continual theme I bet 🙂 .

Gratitude

I have been wandering around trying to pass time until the surgery (I actually counted 67 days ugh!) For the last few days I have allowed “victim” thoughts to crowd my head.  This is not like me..I have never been a victim nor will I ever be!  I am not sick. I decided that the more I allow myself to get bogged down in my own thoughts, the more down I feel.

So time to snap out of it..or at least do some things to try.  Instead of thoughts of mastectomy, surgery and recovery I think it is time to take a look at what is right in front of me and be grateful!

Sometimes it just needs to be on a billboard!

Today I am grateful for :

  • Both of my girls having a great day at school
  • Being on the field to see my baby play in her second softball game…and being there to kiss her boo-boo when she fell down
  • The extra hugs before bed from both
  • Hearing “I love you mommy”!

May not seem like much but to me the world!  I guess sometimes it is good to remind yourself…all in all good day!