Category: Pre-op Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy

Stress?!

The rains have finally started..much needed.  The weather has called for it all week but instead just heat and sun.  Don’t get me wrong, I love the nice weather but once in a while a good rain is needed!

I have begun to shift into preparation mode.  Went shopping bought some “recuperation outfits”.  A “mom” robe I have termed it because it looks way too much like what my mother worn for years.  It has a big zipper in the front and short sleeve so easy access.  Do what you have to do I guess.  Also bought some men’s tank tops…read on someone’s blog that post mastectomy  that they were easy to get into and pin the drains to.  I guess we should stop here for a moment for the mental image of that outfit….yikes!

As we get closer, people who know what is happening want to talk to me about the surgery. I on the other hand do not want to discuss it.  I am not sure why…I am solid in my decision and it is always on my mind but I just do not want to talk about it!  I am sure that I come across as short or rude which is not intended.  I don’t know, guess it is my thing.

Tomorrow night is date night.  Should be fun.  Going to a restaurant that we have never been to..highly rated.  It will be good to get away for a few hours!  Been a long few weeks…not sleeping well, mind racing.  I am SOOOO ready to be through the surgery!

Still Grateful

You simply will not be the same person two months from now after consciously giving thanks each day for the abundance that exists in your life. And you will have set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you.” — Sarah Ban Breathnach
Interesting….many weeks back when I was really feeling low about things I saw some similar quotes like the one above.  I decided that no matter what was going on around me that I could not control, you can do a lot to control your own personal feelings by just keeping some perspective.  Since, I have tried to identify things on a daily basis that I am grateful for some of which I have posted along the way.
Here I sit about 33 days out of surgery feeling a little overwhelmed but for the most part at peace.  And still very grateful!
Today I am grateful for:
  • today is my 14th wedding anniversary…Love you Frank!
  • My beautiful girls
  • My health!!

Blue skies and giggles

Beautiful weekend!  The nicest Memorial Weekend I can remember for a while!  Thank you to those who served to allow us the ability to sit and enjoy a free life.

I am sitting here on the patio next to the pool.  The girls have a friend over so I am watching them play in the pool. Little girls in a pool..been a loud afternoon!  We have heat warnings through tomorrow so there is really no other place to be!  It has been a great weekend with friends, drinks, BBQ and pool time!  Who can ask for anything more.

The time is growing near so I figure I will party my way to the surgical table.  The hubby and I have a date this coming weekend.  Right now life is about the events that I am looking forward to before the surgery…our dinner date, Madison’s graduation, Megan’s piano recital and weekends with friends.  Better than thinking about the fact the doctors appointments start again next week and that we are almost at the 30 day til mark.

I am allowing myself this last day of party weekend.  This week I will begin to do things to prepare for the surgery, shopping etc.  For now I am thinking about a drink.  It will have to wait a bit until the girls are out of the pool.  Maybe something fruity…:-).