My daughter came home from karate and was a bit down because they sparred and she did not do well. The Sensei is tough (and btw great with the kids). I told her it was fine because it is a lesson well taught in a safe environment. She does not understand what I mean by that. I wanted them to take karate. I worry so much about them. I want my girls to be able to handle any and all situtaions that come their way. I hope they both follow through and make it to black belt.
Laying in bed last night, not sleeping (which has been a common theme again lately) I could not clear my head. I flipped on the DVR and watched a Burn Notice that I had recorded. In it the main characters brother was killed..he was not a main character, only been in a few episodes. I found myself in tears..not because of this guy on the TV but for some reason the funeral scene flashed me back to the night my mother died and the image of her lying motionless in her bed. That was 10 years ago…where the heck did that come from and why?
My children never met either of their grandmothers. When Megan was a baby there were several strange occurrences. One time she was maybe 2ish she was talking. When I asked who she was talking to she said “grand mommy, your mommy”. I thought nothing of it, a child at play. Then another time we were on the front step and she had a bowl of blueberries. She kept putting her hand out with 1 blueberry in it as if offering it to someone. I asked what she was doing. She told me she was giving it to grandmom. I asked if she saw grandmom and she laughed pointed and said yes right there. I again for the most part, wrote if off to child at play but was a little freaked out. Then one day she was singing, Happy Birthday to be exact. I started to sing with her and she finished and clapped. I asked why she was singing and she told me because it is grandmom’s birthday. It stopped me in my tracks, I had to think for a second but she was right, it was. There is no way she could have known that. I took her for the first (and to date one of only a few visits) to my mother’s grave. She stood over the grave waved chatted for a few minutes and then told me she was finished. We never had another sighting.
I have never seen her but I often “feel” like she is around. I wish she had been when my girls were born. Who knows I guess she has always “been around”…who knows right?
A shot of my mother in a much younger day..about 30ish years ago.
Decisions for my Family 