Back in May I posted a page called Reality Hits. Those feelings after walking into the Oncologists office a year ago, both fear and empowerment. Seems like a life time ago! Today I was on my elliptical machine sweating up a storm, thoughts swimming in my head, when it finally started to hit me…I have a new reality! I will not get breast cancer (alright nothing is 100% but 93-95% is not bad at all!) I will never have another mammogram or breast MRI. I started to feel empowered again! When I finished my workout I tooted my own horn with my FB post..(which is not like me honestly):
Exactly 4 weeks ago today released from a one week stay in the hospital after a Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy. A 20+ inch incision across my abdomen. TODAY a 20 minute high impact elliptical workout followed by 5 minutes on the punching bag…DAMN right I am proud of myself!
So much time agonizing over the thoughts of cancer…gone. Then, the validation of my decision to have the mastectomy when the pathology reports hit.
So I understand that I am not ready to run a marathon, but I remember about two weeks ago getting stuck on my back on my own bed, lying there like a turtle. I also fully grasp that I will have a set back on 8/24 when I have the surgery for the nipple reconstruction and revision, but for now I will do what I can to get in somewhat decent shape before then.
The new reality is not too bad at all!!