Tag: Breast

Motherhood

The worst thing about just sitting around with nothing but time are the thoughts that just continue to swirl through my head.  I have mentioned my mother several times in this blog. Although I loved her very much, I have tried to be a very different mother to my children than she was to us. She was a single parent from the time that I was a baby. I know it was not easy for her.

Growing up I don’t really ever remember hearing  the words “I love you”.  I know that she loved me  and I loved her.  But it is nice to hear the words right?  I remember when Megan was born.  I was so thrilled.  See I was a career girl and was never going to have children, that is until I had Megan and resigned from my career :-).  I could not have loved her anymore.  I just loved to hold her, hug her and kiss her.  I used to just sit and kiss her head…even told her tiny little body that there would be a million kisses up there by the time she was one. I also made her a promise that a day would not pass when I would not tell her how much I loved her!  The same held true when Madison was born and as they have both gotten a little older I encourage them to talk to us and ask questions.  This is often very interesting as other also find.  Out of the blue whatever is on Madison’s mind comes out…sometimes a little awkward but the only way to learn.

By no means am I a push over quit the countrary I am actually very strict. But  I do not want my girls to be afraid of anything and I do not want them to ever feel that they missed out!

3weeks post op, the internet and Johnny Cash

 

I am actually a little sore from my walk yesterday.  Amazing.  It is getting really hot again.  I made the girls get dressed early so we could get a little walk in again today.  Not nearly as long as yesterday but something.  Then I sat while they played on their bikes and scooters for a little while.  Good for them to get out.  It sure was hot though!  Wonder if a little elliptical would be allowed?  That would be great is I fell off I would have to lay there until Frank got home from work.  I am thinking that since stairs are not the most comfortable thing for me I should probably not attempt the elliptical.

SO Random subject change but I love the internet.  I could really become one of those people who never leaves the house.  I have been doing my shopping via the internet since before it was cool.  Now that it has grown so, you can buy just about everything and for the most part even cheaper than you can find it in the store.  Over the last 2 days I have ordered Megan’s birthday present, some clothes for both girls, new cordless phones and some dry goods i.e. cereal, tuna etc. I also ordered most of the school supply list for Megan since I am not sure when I will be allowed to drive.  If I could only find someone who could get milk and items like that to me fresh I may never leave the house.  After watching the news this weekend about those poor people who just wanted to see the Batman movie, why would you ever want to go out?

What is great about the internet is your ability to compare prices and see reviews from real people.  My first rule is I never order from anyone who charges shipping!  Most sites offer free ship over $25 or even a flat rate of like $5 no matter amount spent.  Anything over that is a NO.  You can also search for a web code for many sites that you can add-on top of that.  Staples is awesome because if you have their card you can recycle ink carts for $2 per up to 20 a month and gain rewards which you can redeem on-line.  Megan’s entire box of school supplies cost us like $20. And they bring it right to my door Gotta love internet shopping.

Alright, enough of my internet market campaign.

So I know that several of the blogs I have seen post pics of the actual healing process.  I am not comfortable with that…hell if I were to post the before I think people may actually run in fear.  Due to the weeping I have had over the last few days I have gone with the Johnny Cash look then I do not need to worry about the girls getting concerned.  Thankfully, the weeping does seem to have stopped for now.  Fingers crossed that it stays that way.  This is a shot from 2 days ago.  Not exactly off the cover of vogue but progress! This was the best I could do in the way of comparison because of course I never take pictures of myself.

 

20 Days Post Prophylactic Mastectomy

After dinner tonight I put on my sneakers and out he door I went with my girls.  We went for an adventure..well we walked around the block. Being as it was the first time I have left the house for anything other than a doctor’s appointment it is the closest thing  to an adventure as I am going to get.  Lap number one went great…”let’s go around again”.  Sounded better coming out of my mouth then it was in reality.  Half way around I began to struggle.  We made it home but I do believe I bit off a little more than I was ready to chew.  Oh well…no harm no foul I guess. I am not in the best of moods at the moment though…sitting quietly by myself waiting for a pill to kick in.

SO for the updates, the abdomen continues to heal nicely.  A few spots still a bit raw but for the most part wonderful.  I took a shower yesterday but since I have had some weeping on my left breast at the corner of the flap.  I think some of the scab once wet came off leaving this little spot of weeping.    It is not a lot and it has no odor and is watery thin.  The site is not red or warm and there is no increased pain.  For the most part it is colorless maybe a tinge yellowish.  At first I was worried but as I was released from the hospital they warned of some weeping.  Of course I spent some time on the internet looking around about it and have decided it is not an infection.  I will keep a close eye on it.

Other than that physically still sore but each day still get better.  I am a bit annoyed that a small walk around the block wipes me out the way it did but I will get over it.  All in all doing great!