Me

looking back…

So much time is spent looking into the past that many people miss what is happening right in front of them.  Regrets over decisions made, hard felling over what others did, or did not do and longing for what could have been.  We have all done it at one time or another.  Since my BPM surgery I have spent much less time looking back and instead try to enjoy every minute as it happens.

I saw this today and it really did ring true.  My past, the good the bad and the ugly  not so pretty, all make up who I am today.

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Our trip to Disney World, Post nipple reconstruction/revision

Be our Guest

Thank you…
for thinking of me
and then wondering
how you could help.
Thank you…
for doing what you did,
instead of being too busy,
or just forgetting about it.
Thank you…
For inking me
on your priority to-do list,
when you have
so many other things to do;
I am honored;
It meant a lot to me.
Thank you.

By Joanna Fuchs

 

Anyone who has read a few of my posts can probably draw the conclusion that I am not a wordsmith.  My writings are not polished but they are real and from the heart.  There are so many people who I wanted to thank. I found this and I think it fits perfectly.

From delivering meals to watching the kids, from stopping by, making a call, sending and e-mail, card, blog comment,  text or even Facebook post.  Goodies and flowers all thoughts from special people who have helped  myself and my family work our way through this experience just a bit smoother.  All appreciated!

There is one person who I have known for years who did none of these things. I know that I should not let things bother me but after oh, 25+ years of “friendship” to not warrant a few words even via text?  I am thankful for this also.  This experience has opened up a world of new friends and shown a light on those that were a bit more shallow. Life is too short to get bogged down.

Anyway, still very sore but at least the pain pills can keep up now, thankfully!  The Disney reservations continued today with the highlight being dinner at the new Be our Guest restaurant.  I am honestly not in love with the menu but that is not the point of eating there for the girls.  It is all about the dream!

And now we invite you to relax, let us pull up a 
chair as the dining room proudly presents – 
your dinner!
Be our guest! 

Pre-op Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy

Still Grateful

You simply will not be the same person two months from now after consciously giving thanks each day for the abundance that exists in your life. And you will have set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you.” — Sarah Ban Breathnach
Interesting….many weeks back when I was really feeling low about things I saw some similar quotes like the one above.  I decided that no matter what was going on around me that I could not control, you can do a lot to control your own personal feelings by just keeping some perspective.  Since, I have tried to identify things on a daily basis that I am grateful for some of which I have posted along the way.
Here I sit about 33 days out of surgery feeling a little overwhelmed but for the most part at peace.  And still very grateful!
Today I am grateful for:
  • today is my 14th wedding anniversary…Love you Frank!
  • My beautiful girls
  • My health!!