Tag: Health

Put down the chips!

I need a push, a jolt of sorts to get moving.  Recently I seem to have an overall blah attitude.  I seem to lack motivation.  I did a quick google search of the word “motivation” and that indeed confirmed that I lack it!

  1. The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.
  2. The general desire or willingness of someone to do something.

Today I was productive, changed sheets, did laundry and took the vacuum apart and cleaned it up.  Very exciting! During the week I did the shopping and other needed activities around the house.  Everyone got to practice and lessons and everyone had meals provided daily.  Outside of the normal necessary things, I did nothing.  Not only did I not workout, I could not stop eating these tasty jalapeno potato chips that were on sale.  That makes for a bad combination.  I am very proud of the 40 pounds that I lost and can not allow myself to slide backward.lays-kettle-cooked-jalapeno

So my head tells me a change needs to be made.  Now to get my body to get on board! I need to get focused!  No more chips, I can not be trusted if they are in the house ;-).  I believe the weather has a big roll to play in my mood, grey cold and dreary.  A nice sunny day would be helpful but I can not make excuses.  Tomorrow I will start with a small step, one onto the scale.  From there I commit to time on the elliptical machine. After that, well let’s just take it slow :-).

Unfocused anger

The other day I had an angry visitor to my site who took offense to my post Go sell your Drama somewhere else. This person felt I was being mean and “attacking someone on a blog that was supposed to be about breast cancer”.  What is interesting about that is the post in question is written about me and how I have changed how I respond to negative influences on my life.  Second, at no time have I stated that this is about “breast cancer.” My header gives a brief description,

 “What would you do if presented with a 50-50 chance of developing breast cancer? That is exactly what happened to me. This is my journey to peace of mind.”

 “About this page”  goes more in-depth about the beginnings of this blog.  Over time I discussed my preparation for a bilateral prophylactic mastectomy, the surgery itself, the impact it had on my family and myself and the decisions I have made and the effect those decisions had on my family and myself.  As I began to get back to normal after my surgery, I discussed how the experience changed me and my intention to continue the blog and focus on my family.

Over time I received the support of many tremendous people, many of those women who either were strong survivors of cancer or like me able to make preemptive decisions to prevent cancer.

This blog has been a sounding board, a type of therapy to clear my head.  A place to meet others and share ideas.  If that offends someone well, for lack of a better thought, tough!  In this great land of the free,you have the right not to read my scribblings.

To that visitor, I hope you find some peace from what ever it is that angers you so that you feel you must lash out at things that you do not seem to understand and that honestly are unimportant in the greater scope of what seems to weigh on you to cause such anger.

Thank you to my friends, family and those who have offered support along the way!

Tomorrow is another day

A few days home and things are fully back to normal.  Thankfully Madison’s stomach is one of those things!  The scheduling of yet another pelvic ultrasound is another.  I still question whether it would be better to know for sure if I was BRCA positive.  I am not sure if it really matters at this point I guess.

After realizing that there was a history of prostate cancer in men on my father’s side, added to the breast cancer issues on my mothers,  I reached out to the genetic counselor to see if it made a difference in the insurances companies payment position.  I have heard back from the genetic counselor and it does not.  She sent me the full bullet pointed criteria laid out by the insurance company.

I can not worry about things I can not control.  This puts and end to the thoughts of testing for me.  I have already had a prophylactic mastectomy and the fact that I have scheduled my third pelvic ultrasound in roughly 5 months shows a close eye is being kept on me.  Pending the results of this round I will need to make some decisions.  Until then, well tomorrow is another day!