Just a little blue

I am a little down at the moment.  I was allowed to take the dressing off yesterday and although I intended to leave them on longer, I changed my mind.  I did it mainly because I wanted to change them.  Now, I fully realized that this process was not a breast augmentation and that we were not going to have perfect boobies once complete.  I fully realize that I am only 4 days out of surgery.  I fully realize that I am swollen and that I have fresh incisions from the nips to under my arms on both sides.

Now, fully realizing these things does not mean I was not a bit taken back when I looked into the mirror.  I feel like the nipples are huge and one is larger than the other, maybe they will reduce in size as swelling goes down.  I am happy with the size and the air bags are gone…happy things.  I feel like one points up and one points down and that there is a significant difference in the center points between the two.  I know normal healthy breasts are not prefect but I feel like these issues are really glaring.

Frank says to relax, step back.  Let the swelling go down, let the healing take place for a few days at least before I get upset.  I see the doctor on Wednesday…for the first time it hit me that maybe I am not finished with surgery…oh god.  I will do my best to push it to the back of my head until Wednesday.

So a snapshot for how my week is going…I wake up early to get the days Disney dinning reservations booked.  The on-line system seemed to be having issues so I go old school and pick up the phone and call.  After a few minutes the lovely woman on the other end informs that Disney prides itself on having one of the best IT systems in the world and with that said the system seemed to be down.  I wonder how often this happens..the Bailey’s broke the Disney Reservation system!

On a happier note, it is now a few hours later and meals are mostly booked!!  I am glad I have this to distract me for a bit each day.  Today is highlighted by Chef Mickey for breakfast and  dinner with Chip and Dale at The Garden Grill.  We want to have some steaks in Canada for lunch but for some reason Le Cellier has not opened up that week yet.  It is never easy :-).  At least we have the others booked.  There is always tomorrow!

6 thoughts on “Just a little blue”

  1. It’s hard to wait when we’ve been through so much. I totally understand your being in a funk. Same here.

  2. I feel like I am whining since all in all I am very lucky! I did not have cancer and with the pathology reports being what they were made and excellent decision having the surgery when I did. I am so thankful! Yet, I am feeling like this process is never ending! Feeling frustrated for feeling frustrated LOL.

  3. I’m excited to see pics from your trip! I ate at Wine Country Trattoria on my weekend trip & still need to post one pic from dinner. Continue to heal. 🙂

  4. We can’t wait to go back! We went in October but did not stay at a Disney resort nor did we do the dinning plan. This time we are going full out Disney! A full 7 night! Should be a blast!! 🙂

  5. I’m kinda jealous….ok really jealous! I love Disney and I would go every year if I could. I really would love to hide in one of your bags and come with you to Disney. I hope you have an awesome time and hoping you are feeling great when you go. I saw Frank tonight at soccer and asked how you were doing. (Although reading your blog, I feel like I know how you are.) I wish I could do more to help. Debbie was with me tonight and said to say “Hi”. She saw Megan and said that she looks exactly like you. Always thinking of you.

  6. LOVE Chef Mickey and The Garden Grill. You are wise to keep focused on happy things. I made most of our reservations for our trip this month when I was just post mastectomy in March. It was good therapy. As for your healing… HUGS to you. That’s all I can say. You are doing an amazing job.

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