Funny…brave is defined by Webster as:having or showing courage brave soldier> <a brave smile. As I began to tell friends what was happening and the decision I had made, one of the first things that repeatedly came out of people’s mouths was how brave I was to make such a tough decision. I still find that kind of funny…am I brave or is it that the simple thought of developing Cancer sends me into pure panic?
The next question is if I am scared? That is also an interesting question, not because of the question itself but because of my inability to answer it. I should be scared right? I am about to undergo a 14 hour surgery which will permanently alter my body. On the other hand if I do nothing the experts and statistics tell me that I will develop Cancer. I guess an honest answer would be that I am nervous. I am concerned about how my 5 and 7-year-old children will handle things. I and concerned that things may not go as planned during the surgery. I worry about the recovery afterward. As for scared? I do not believe that I am at least not 3 months out from the surgery. I guess we can revisit this question as we get closer.