Category: Pre-op Bilateral Prophylactic Mastectomy

Field day

I am exhausted!  This morning they held “field days” at my daughters school.  She has never asked me to volunteer for any of these things in the past so when she did this year I made sure to be there.  A friend and I ran the “Irish Potato Race” together.  The kids used a hockey stick to push a nerf  football.  As soon as I saw it I knew we would have an interesting morning.  Shockingly, no one was hit by a stick.  We met many very nice kids and many orderly classes.  We also ran across the “others” we will call them.  It was something.  I am glad I could be there for Meg!

Yesterday I had my appointment with the surgeon.  For the most part it went well.  Funny I first met him 18 years ago for my first biopsy…I told him I have been with him longer than my husband.  He seems very optimistic about my recovery/rehab since to date I show no signs of cancer so they will not have any reason to go near the lymph nods.  We will keep our fingers crossed.  It does seem that my blood pressure is up.  I have never had any issue with blood pressure.  He says it is a bit of a concern but should not affect the surgery.  He says I need to relax, cut out things causing stress, get back on my exercise routine and hey while I am at it if I wanted to drop a few pounds before the surgery feel free.  I will get right on all of that! I signed off on the consent form and was on my way.  Next time we meet I will be on the table I guess.

Tomorrow is blood work.

Eyes wide open…and blood-shot

I can not sleep.  For years now, Sleep is something that I have battled.  I could sit here for several more hours with no luck then tomorrow I will drag all afternoon. I have a doctors appointment in the morning so maybe that is part of it…reality really hits hard starting tomorrow!

So to pass the time I am sitting here flipping channels and nothing interesting is on.   How funny is that?  Growing up we had like 5 total channels until cable first rolled out.  Even then just a handful and you could always find something interesting.  Now reality shows, 24 hour news; none of it good, and shock TV.

The rest of the family is in bed so I am alone with just my little ole thoughts which of course are raging, racing and never-ending. I printed up the visitation hours for the hospital for Frank and the girls.  I was worried that they may not be able to see me in the ICU since they are so young but after scanning the hospitals page I don’t think that should be a problem. That puts me a little more at ease.  At least they will be able to come and see that I am alright. They are so innocent, so caring and so loving with absolutely nothing attached. So many people as they get older have too many strings.

One thing about all of those strings, once you are able to get yourself to make the decision to cut off currently healthy parts of your body for the best interest of yourself and your family, it makes it extremely easy to remove unwanted strings from your life.  All in keeping things in perspective I guess, something that we easily lose when we become so busy that we forget to step back and reflect on our lives.  Right now that is all I am doing..too much so at times!

Well let’s hope things go well at the doctor tomorrow.

 

30 days….

So dinner was excellent!  We went to DelFrisco’s Double Eagle Steak House and the food was fantastic!  It was originally an old bank built in the 30’s.  Very cool with the huge columns.  A very nice night with my husband.

30 days from today tick tock tick tock. This time next month the surgery should be over or close to it and the recovery stage will begin.  Now we just need to get through the 30 days.

I went to the chiropractor the other day, felt much better after I left.  Seems I am holding a bunch of stress LOL…I was not too surprised to hear that.  I made 2 more appointments for this month.

This week I see Dr. Atabek and need to get my pre-op blood work drawn.  Also have Field day at Megan’s school and a dinner with cousins of my husband’s that I have never met.  And of course the normal karate and softball.  Should be an interesting week I guess.

30 days….after all of this agonizing time, where has the time gone?  I am sure these days will both drag and fly at the same time!