64 days wow! In the months leading up to the mastectomy, there were points where I never thought the actual surgery day would come. Now I look back and am amazed, it seems like forever ago. So how am I feeling?
My abdomen has healed nicely. I have a small lump which is probably scare tissue in the front which I will point out to the doctor tomorrow. It is still tight in the area but it is a good tight. I need to keep it that way! The Surgeon has mentioned that I can have a scar revision done, I will have to think about that possibility.
The boobs are coming along. I still have one ugly bruise on the left side that causes some minor pain. The incisions are healing. I have my first follow-up appointment with the plastic surgeon tomorrow. The newpples are different sizes, one of which way too big. When I spoke with his nurse last weeks she said not to worry. They have to be big to allow for shrinking and anything that does not shrink can be taken care of in the office easily. I still think one is higher than the other but not as bad as it was since some of the swelling has gone down. I guess it will just take more time to determine what the final appearance will be.
I have not been allowed to stand and take a “full” shower since the nipple reconstruction. They did not want the steri strips around the newpples to get wet. It has been a bit of a pain, washing in the shower with the hand-held then washing my hair in the kitchen sink. I remember when I was a kid my mother would freak out if you even brushed your hair in the kitchen. Good thing she is not around to see this!
Big day tomorrow. After the doctor Madison and I will head to the Kindergarten for meet the teacher. I am happy that the district does this. Allows the kids to not only meet the teacher, but see where the classroom is and in which building. Our Kindergarten is separated from any of the other schools and has 3 buildings. They are color codes. Tomorrow Madi will get a lanyard to wear on Thursday that will match a colored set of foot prints that shows which building to go to. This visit helps to relieve some of the first day stress.
She is so excited Thursday is the big day!
So after a weekend of taking it easy, this morning the girls and I headed out for a nice walk for me and bike ride for them. It is already pretty warm out but it really is a nice way to start the day when for the rest of it you are basically trapped. We came in, grabbed some nice cold water and I am sitting quietly. My abdomen does not really cause much discomfort anymore. The only problem there is the pure weakness which I realize will take time to rebuild.
The issue is with the boobs. I am still not allowed to wear a bra. I honestly don’t know if wearing one would even help…I would probably just complain about have to wear it all of the time. The odd shape and uneven size is a factor..I still feel like I am growing boobs under my arms especially on the left side. That one is still at least a full size if not larger than the other one. The right one though for some reason tends to ache more. Go figure. I still have some oxy’s left but don’t want to take them unless pain is really bad. On the other hand, Tylenol/Motrin are not always enough to deal with the pain/ache. I see the doctor tomorrow. I want to ask if there is something else he can give me that is not as strong as the oxy but has more kick than the Motrin. Funny I feel strange asking for more pain meds but I guess that shows that I am not some pill head…if I were guess I would not care about asking.
So the bike shorts I had been wearing have all gotten too loose..which is pretty cool to be honest. I bought an actual abdominal wrap to keep as tight as possible. My girls are great because the both grab an end and help me get it on even and tight. They really have been wonderful helpers!
It is strange to think about, 4 weeks ago today I was still in surgery with my bilateral prophylactic mastectomy. I would emerge in terrible pain I remember complaining about my shoulder the most. From what I understand, I was on the table for a bit over 12 hours with my arms straight over my head…in my own head I figure I was kind of supermanish. Drains seeming like they were everywhere. Monitors that would not stop beeping…oxygyn continually because I seemed to forget to breath from time to time with all the pain meds. The joys of being surrounded by nurses 1-2 times a day for my “shift and raise” that was always a good time.
To be where I am now just 4 weeks later is an amazing testament to modern medicine.
I have my fingers crossed for my appointment tomorrow. I so hope that we get the date scheduled for the final phase of this process. Please please!!!!!