Thoughts 2 weeks + 1

It is so outrageously hot!  I would love to get outside and take a walk but not going to happen.

It has been a very pleasant morning.  I laid in bed until 8am…(my girls are typically up by 6:30 ish).  Had a leisurely cup of coffee and quietly sitting back on my bed typing this.  I did talk to the girls who are having a wonderful time with their aunt.  I am also having a wonderful time all alone.  Is that bad?  I feel kind of guilty but it is true.  Today the Disney channel will not be on my TV but instead will be replaced by the True Blood episodes I am behind on. Don’t get me wrong, I love Disney as a matter of fact booked the rest of our Disney trip reservations on Sunday. Too many Phineas and Ferb episodes starts to make me crazy.

There is one thing that I did not expect to learn through this experience and that is who will really be there for you when needed.  There are people who I expected to be “there” but I have not even heard from..not a call, text, e-mail, note on Facebook, card or even owl (Harry Potter reference for those into Harry).  Then on the other side we have had people who have gone above and beyond anything I ever could have expected. I don’t want this to sound wrong, I mean I am not a materialistic person.  A card or simple text shows someone is thinking about you and cares. When everything on you body hurts, it helps just to know that someone cares.  I was having a bad day one day and a box arrived with the cutest little mini yellow rose bush…totally changed my day!  Food dropped off from wonderful people have allowed my overstretched husband to be able to focus on myself and the girls.  The many cards and thoughts sent from my friends here provided a smile during otherwise unpleasant time.

For all of you who have been there thank you from the bottom of my heart I love you all.  For those who have not, well…whatever.

1 Week!

One week ago at this point I guess I was in the PACU (Post-Anesthesia Care Unit)   I ended up there all night because there was not a bed available in Trama ICU where the surgeon wanted me.  By staying in the PACU I was the only patient and had a nurse dedicated to me for the night.  Linda was her name and she was wonderful!

SO today I had my first visit with the home health care visiting nurse.  She is actually set to visit with me daily until the drains are removed.  The visit went well..blood pressure has been perfect!  110/70.  I also received a call from the hospital to check on me.  After sitting with the nurse at my kitchen table, I think it is starting to hit me the scale of my surgery.  It was big!

I am getting a little better at getting in and out of bed.  Wish I could raise the head of my bead at home like I could in the hospital.  Here is the pic of my family/bed room.  Thank you to my wonderful hubby for setting me up in the family room!  Frank had to run out for a few work appointments today but a wonderful friend stopped in to make us lunch.  How strange it is for me to sit in my own kitchen while someone else makes hot dogs for my kids.  I am struggling!  I want to run the vacuum, I want to lift the milk!  Instead I watched my super 7-year-old put a load of wash in the washer and a neighbor swiffer my kitchen floor.

Each day gets better and it has only been a week..one really long unbelievable week.

Check

Today was a busy day!  The girls had karate followed by lunch out, errand shopping dinner at the mall and some more shopping.  I continue to try to make things easy for the family.  We have paper towels and toilet paper stacked to the ceiling, enough tissues to last through next allergy season , ketchup (a major staple in my household) to supply a small diner, enough dog food for an entire kennel and if one was so inclined the floors are clean enough to eat off of.

I exaggerate of course.  I don’t know if it is a way of me passing the time.  Maybe I have no fear/worry about the actual surgery because I have a god complex that they can’t survive without me. I don’t give myself time to worry since I have to get things ready for them. Who knows and quite honestly who cares.  It works for all involved.  I want Frank to be able to focus on the girls, it keeps me busy and I am sure things have been taken care of properly.

I just finished the “lists”.  Phone numbers of friends and another for medication.  Both girls have allergy and or sinus issues.  I am a stay at home mom…these things are in my head and handled by me daily as routine  habit. Sitting trying to put it in nice little checklists it not easy lol!

Tomorrow marks 5 days til surgery!