Just a little blue

I am a little down at the moment.  I was allowed to take the dressing off yesterday and although I intended to leave them on longer, I changed my mind.  I did it mainly because I wanted to change them.  Now, I fully realized that this process was not a breast augmentation and that we were not going to have perfect boobies once complete.  I fully realize that I am only 4 days out of surgery.  I fully realize that I am swollen and that I have fresh incisions from the nips to under my arms on both sides.

Now, fully realizing these things does not mean I was not a bit taken back when I looked into the mirror.  I feel like the nipples are huge and one is larger than the other, maybe they will reduce in size as swelling goes down.  I am happy with the size and the air bags are gone…happy things.  I feel like one points up and one points down and that there is a significant difference in the center points between the two.  I know normal healthy breasts are not prefect but I feel like these issues are really glaring.

Frank says to relax, step back.  Let the swelling go down, let the healing take place for a few days at least before I get upset.  I see the doctor on Wednesday…for the first time it hit me that maybe I am not finished with surgery…oh god.  I will do my best to push it to the back of my head until Wednesday.

So a snapshot for how my week is going…I wake up early to get the days Disney dinning reservations booked.  The on-line system seemed to be having issues so I go old school and pick up the phone and call.  After a few minutes the lovely woman on the other end informs that Disney prides itself on having one of the best IT systems in the world and with that said the system seemed to be down.  I wonder how often this happens..the Bailey’s broke the Disney Reservation system!

On a happier note, it is now a few hours later and meals are mostly booked!!  I am glad I have this to distract me for a bit each day.  Today is highlighted by Chef Mickey for breakfast and  dinner with Chip and Dale at The Garden Grill.  We want to have some steaks in Canada for lunch but for some reason Le Cellier has not opened up that week yet.  It is never easy :-).  At least we have the others booked.  There is always tomorrow!

Be our Guest

Thank you…
for thinking of me
and then wondering
how you could help.
Thank you…
for doing what you did,
instead of being too busy,
or just forgetting about it.
Thank you…
For inking me
on your priority to-do list,
when you have
so many other things to do;
I am honored;
It meant a lot to me.
Thank you.

By Joanna Fuchs

 

Anyone who has read a few of my posts can probably draw the conclusion that I am not a wordsmith.  My writings are not polished but they are real and from the heart.  There are so many people who I wanted to thank. I found this and I think it fits perfectly.

From delivering meals to watching the kids, from stopping by, making a call, sending and e-mail, card, blog comment,  text or even Facebook post.  Goodies and flowers all thoughts from special people who have helped  myself and my family work our way through this experience just a bit smoother.  All appreciated!

There is one person who I have known for years who did none of these things. I know that I should not let things bother me but after oh, 25+ years of “friendship” to not warrant a few words even via text?  I am thankful for this also.  This experience has opened up a world of new friends and shown a light on those that were a bit more shallow. Life is too short to get bogged down.

Anyway, still very sore but at least the pain pills can keep up now, thankfully!  The Disney reservations continued today with the highlight being dinner at the new Be our Guest restaurant.  I am honestly not in love with the menu but that is not the point of eating there for the girls.  It is all about the dream!

And now we invite you to relax, let us pull up a 
chair as the dining room proudly presents – 
your dinner!
Be our guest! 

New nips and lots of pain

And finally it is over!  According to my surgeon, everything was a success.  I can not judge because I am wrapped up tight and told under no circumstances can I peek for at least a week.  We did discuss before hand that it would be necessary to cut pretty extensively in order to complete the revision surgery on the boobs.  Again, I can not tel how large of a cut but I think I feel every inch and I am not enjoying the pain.

My friend Oxycodone came home with me again and as I type I am waiting for one to take effect.

Further updates will follow.  For now, a nap.