Tag: breast cancer risk

The glass is half full

I had my appointment with the plastic surgeon today.  It went very well.  My blood pressure is back in line 120/80!!  Can’t beat that.  So the normal questions started the appoint including my weight.  I had to admit to putting on a few pounds since we had last meet.  To my surprise he was actually somewhat pleased (maybe I exaggerate a bit, he at least was not at all upset) by this news.  Seems he plans on using most of what I have in the tummy now!  When the doctor was about to finish up he asked if I had any last questions.  So I asked, “when we are finished I will look like a Barbie right?” He laughed and replied, that he could not promise that but that the large boobs I was uncomfortable with would be smaller and that “my tummy  would be a lot flatter”.  Flat stomach…WOOT!  I was 145 pounds and a C-cup before having my girls.  Now I am no where close to 145 and the cup size has multiple letters.  I could be sad about the surgery…but why in the hell would I do that?  I am taking steps to prevent cancer, I am healthy, I worked very hard last year to lose 30 pounds and now will have a little surgical assistance to help that process along. The glass is half full!

This surgery has really done a lot for my outlook on things.  I always look at people in one of two categories…glass is half full folks or the glass is half empty.  The glass is half empty are always the victims, always looking to blame someone or some thing for the misfortunes in their lives.  They often live in the past and make lots of excuses for why they seem “stuck” in certain situations.  They lash out at everyone else when in reality they should look in a mirror and lash out at themselves.

Glass is half full on the other hand laugh in the face of adversity, run through walls and take that “no one will stand in my way” type of attitude.  Prior to a year ago when this all started I kind of floated somewhere in the middle.  I allowed myself to be easily pulled into others drama. I would often feel down about myself  and the decisions I was making and allowed other people’s opinions to cloud my own. This situation has really helped open my eyes up to what is really important. If other want to live in the past, point fingers and lash out so be it but no longer will I allow myself to be pulled down.

Who would have thought preparing for a mastectomy would have done so much for me overall as a person?

30 days….

So dinner was excellent!  We went to DelFrisco’s Double Eagle Steak House and the food was fantastic!  It was originally an old bank built in the 30’s.  Very cool with the huge columns.  A very nice night with my husband.

30 days from today tick tock tick tock. This time next month the surgery should be over or close to it and the recovery stage will begin.  Now we just need to get through the 30 days.

I went to the chiropractor the other day, felt much better after I left.  Seems I am holding a bunch of stress LOL…I was not too surprised to hear that.  I made 2 more appointments for this month.

This week I see Dr. Atabek and need to get my pre-op blood work drawn.  Also have Field day at Megan’s school and a dinner with cousins of my husband’s that I have never met.  And of course the normal karate and softball.  Should be an interesting week I guess.

30 days….after all of this agonizing time, where has the time gone?  I am sure these days will both drag and fly at the same time!

Stress?!

The rains have finally started..much needed.  The weather has called for it all week but instead just heat and sun.  Don’t get me wrong, I love the nice weather but once in a while a good rain is needed!

I have begun to shift into preparation mode.  Went shopping bought some “recuperation outfits”.  A “mom” robe I have termed it because it looks way too much like what my mother worn for years.  It has a big zipper in the front and short sleeve so easy access.  Do what you have to do I guess.  Also bought some men’s tank tops…read on someone’s blog that post mastectomy  that they were easy to get into and pin the drains to.  I guess we should stop here for a moment for the mental image of that outfit….yikes!

As we get closer, people who know what is happening want to talk to me about the surgery. I on the other hand do not want to discuss it.  I am not sure why…I am solid in my decision and it is always on my mind but I just do not want to talk about it!  I am sure that I come across as short or rude which is not intended.  I don’t know, guess it is my thing.

Tomorrow night is date night.  Should be fun.  Going to a restaurant that we have never been to..highly rated.  It will be good to get away for a few hours!  Been a long few weeks…not sleeping well, mind racing.  I am SOOOO ready to be through the surgery!