If I think positive maybe I could strike it rich

think_positiveTomorrow I expect to receive a call with the results of my ultrasound.  I of course am hoping to hear that all is good and I can finally move forward from this 2 year-long medical black cloud.  I will think positive thoughts and hope for the best!

Thursday is another big day.  I am back in Madison’s classroom to help out with journal writing.  The first time in the class was before Christmas and it was eye-opening.  The goal is to get them to write a 2-3 word sentence using their “kid writing”.  Write the word the way they hear it.  Well let’s just say it was something.  A few who just looked at me wanting me to spell it for them or the others who thought it was cool that Madi’s mommy was there so they were totally distracted.  The attention span on some is really short lol.  Madison loves that I am coming again and that is all that matters!  I will be in there every other week until the end of the year I believe.  I hope this week goes a bit better!

bamazon2_480x250SO I am sitting here watching the History channel and the show Bamazon where some construction workers from Alabama have headed into the Amazon jungle to search for gold.  There are several of these shows on now and all are basically the same premise.  A group of people who are already financially drained head into an extreme area, jungle, Bearing Sea, Alaska, and attempt to strike it rich.  People (I) watch because you pull for them hoping that someone will hit it big but of course are not surprised when not only do they not hit it big but more often end up in even deeper debt that they started out with.   money_cant_buy_happiness_button-p145065082887098881en8go_400

My kids laugh at me for watching these shows, more because I believe they find them boring.  I guess It is just holding on to some kind of hope that anyone who tries hard enough can strike it rich.  I mean, we all know the saying money can’t buy happiness but is can sure pay the bills and that makes me pretty happy!

 

 

Retrospection,Introspection and a continued search

what-do-u-want2I wrote a post the other day called What do you want?  As I have thought about the answer to that question all it has done is make me ask myself more questions.  I guess a little introspection is good from time to time.  A long look in the mirror to cleanse the soul.

So, in deciding “what I want”, I started to think about who I am and what I have been through over the last year and a half or so. I scanned through some old posts here and came across one back in April 2012 where I took a shot at a basic introduction.  The only thing I would tend to add or change is that I no longer live in fear of developing breast cancer.  Instead I am very lucky!  I am lucky and thankful that I had the strength to make the decision to have a prophylactic mastectomy. Those who have been peeking in for a while now know what a great decision that was since cancer markers were found in the biopsy.  It was only a matter of time.

I started this blog almost a year ago for myself to clear my thoughts as the process toward the BPM began.  Over time I meet some strong and wonderful woman.  Some of these woman are battling strong_womancancer, others like myself trying to jump out in front but all became inspiration to me in some way.  As the surgeries began, this blog became an avenue to vent, whine and express myself.  It did not matter if anyone actually read but it was nice to know that some did and maybe my experience helped someone the way I was helped.I continue writing now because although I have grown so much personally through this experience, I still do not open up well personally.  This continues to be a great outlet for me.

SO I will continue to type away, rambling about my children, my family and sometimes plain old daily minutia.  I am continuing to work toward the answer of what I want and while doing so will thank god for what I have.  A beautiful family, my health and a future that is wide open.  Not too bad I guess!

That’s for stopping by, I do appreciate it!

wl167

Roller skates, basketballs and a big bottle of Tylenol

10020274One of the must have gift this year for both of the girls was roller skates.  I found it interesting since neither have ever skated before nor do we know anyone who does.  I loved the idea!  Good exercise, something they could do together and something not electronic. I remember as a kid skating in my basement in my white, metal wheeled skates.  The basement was really the only place you could skate with those metal wheels, hit a rock in the street and you went flying. Who ever thought metal wheels was a good idea?

So the girls received the skates from their aunt and uncle and both were thrilled.  Having wooden floors makes the house a small skating rink.  The day after Christmas and still in pajamas the skates were on and laced.  One at a time turns were taken holding my arm (tightly) as we went back and forth down the hall.  This lasted only until I was kicked so hard in the ankle I almost fell down.  Even with a death grip on my arm, neither of my balance challenged angels could stay on their feet.  The session lasted a few minutes until we agreed to take a break.

My ankle was sore for days!  That was the last time mommy stood anywhere near a child with wheels on their feet!

In between skating sessions, the make shift skating rink transforms into a basket ball arena for the new balls the girls received from their father.  The weather has been lousy here and over break there were battling flu/infections and viruses so we have been  basically stuck inside.  It is amazing the amount of thumping noise 2 basketballs can create. 12917515-illustration-of-a-basketball-mascot-walking

Over the passing days the balance on the skates has improved as has the ability to bounce the basketball.  Now they are running up and down the hall attempting to shoot it against my front door.   It is better than sitting around all day.  It is a nice break from the computer and Ipad activities.  I am sure that if they put the ball through a window my opinion may change, we will keep our fingers crossed!

My mother would never have approved :-).