Not long now

Less than 2 weeks now.  First I need to start off with a big Happy Birthday to my husband!  I hope you enjoyed your round of golf today!

So the 5-year-old mind continues to swirl for Madison.  We can be doing just about anything when she will blurt out another interesting question such as:

  • “so mommy, if you do not have this surgery would you become one of the bald people?”
  • “mommy, how are they going to make your boobies and belly smaller, squish them down really hard?”

She has also taken the opportunity to tell random people that I will be going into the hospital.  But she does seem to be handling it alright.

We have a list of crafts and things that they wanted to do this summer so we went shopping yesterday to buy many supplies.  We made our first iron on t-shirts last night.  We will attempt tie-dye later this week.  The puppets and puppet stage are in process.  My kitchen looks like a Kindergarten art room gone terribly wrong.

Other than that things are relatively calm 13 days out from surgery.  The insurance company actually called to see if I needed anything today…found that interesting.  We have the guest room cleaned out probably for the first time in years.  My sister-in-law will be staying the night before the surgery so the girls do not have to be pulled from best a 4 am to take me to the hospital.

Not too much longer now!

What a day

What a morning.  As I continue my party to the operating room agenda, I had a big reality check this morning…I am not a young party animal anymore!  We had friends over last evening and had a great time as did the kids.  They watched movies and played all night in the basement until one by one they all fell asleep. MY mix of B-52’s and beer made for an extremely rough morning the likes of which I don’t think I have seen since college…nor do I plan on repeating any time soon!  It was a great time though!

Happy Fathers day to my husband.  The kids have kept him busy all day washing the car then reading together under the willow tree.  Very cute!  Then wrapped up the afternoon going for ice cream…for dinner.  Not an activity I would normally approve of but hey..guess once in a while it can’t hurt.

I did finally talk to the girls today.  I did not tell them more than they really needed to know.  I stressed that I was not sick and by doing this would not get sick.  They reacted according to their normal personalities..Madison started talking loud and fast and running up and down the hall way between questions.  I will need to keep an eye on her.  It is still processing in her little 5-year-old brain.  She did tell me that she did not want to visit me in the hospital because of what happened last year.  She said it scared her and she did not want to go back.  I told her that I fully understood.

Megan on the other hand is my worrier .  She tried to be tough until I told her that it was alright to tell me what she was thinking.  Then the tears came.  Lots of hugs between questions.  She seems fine now.  I guess we will take it day by day.

We are now just 2 weeks away from the mastectomy.  Wow..almost hard to wrap my head around.  After a year of biopsy, scans, appointments and worry we are almost there.  Finally!  I can not wait until it is over!

Graduation Day

Today was graduation day from Pre-K for my baby.  Where has the time gone?  Starting next year both girls will head to the bus stop. No more early trips to the preschool.  We have been there for 4 years between both girls so walking out the door today felt strange.  I have to face reality, my girls are growing up…I don’t have to like the idea!

I am so proud of both of them.  Megan’s last report card from second grade was perfect. She is reading on a 5th grade level and corrects my grammar.  Madison is beginning to read and has a wonderful grasp of basic math. They both make me smile from ear to ear!

This day also brings closer my conversation with them.  I wanted to wait until they were out of school.  Well…no more excuses!