Tag: breast cancer risk

Mommy and Madi day

What a great day!    The township does a nice job getting the kids prepared for Kindergarten.  Upon enrolling students you sign up for a bus trip which they run for almost two weeks in May.  You get to ride the bus with your child to school to help ease them into it.

After getting Megan onto the bus for school, Madison and I headed off to the park for our tour.  I was not thrilled with the pouring rain outside thinking that we would have to stand in the park after checking in to wait for the bus.  I was very pleased when we tuned the corner into the lot and saw the bus there waiting for us…YEAH!  As soon as Madi saw it she started yelling at me that we needed to hurry or we would miss it. (mind you we were 15 minutes early)  We boarded and our adventure was underway.

The actual ride to the school is only maybe 5 minutes but to the kids it is like a magic bus heading to an entire new world.  I do not have great memories of school from my youth.  Was not a great student early on..lets just say I had some issues.  I have two little girls who just love school so I do everything I can to keep this going!  We arrived and interestingly the rain stopped long enough for us to get into the buildings..then the skies opened. We met with the special teachers (art,library,music and gym) and they all did a 5 min presentation/interaction with the kids. All very nice.

Then we toured the buildings.  We ran into Megan’s old teacher who made a big production over meeting Madison..who just loves attention!  Madi thought she was the coolest thing that they already knew her in this school.  Heading back to the bus Madison confidently stated “I can’t wait to come, I am going to like it here”.

Oh..and no I did not cry!

I wish I could get through a day without thoughts of the pending mastectomy.  As we sat with the teachers of course the kids were a bit nervous and quiet.  The librarian was having them imagine happy things; running in the park, sitting in the sun on the beach and fireworks on the 4th of July.  I thought about my 4th of July..I will be 2 days post op lying in the hospital and hoping for no fireworks! Thankfully I was able to shake it off for the most park and took my baby to the mall for lunch and shoe shopping.

All in all another great day!

Today I am grateful for:

  • not being rained on waiting for a bus
  • A great day with my youngest
  • the twinkle in her little eyes as she imagines the future
  • hearing “I love you mommy as I put them to bed”

Not a bad list!

Kindergarten Trip

Tomorrow is a monumental day…the day we take the tour of Kindergarten for Madison.  For me it is the day we lay to rest all questions of whether there are any babies left in the house :-(.  I told Madison that there was a real possibility that mommy could cry on the bus….she laughed at me.

It is a day of mixed emotions for me.  Roughly two years ago I had a miscarriage.  We were still thinking of trying when I found the lump a year ago.  The doctors said I could wait for the mastectomy but that did not seem like a realistic option to me…the better part of a year pregnant.  Two years of carrying a baby around.  To me the odds of developing breast cancer just continued to increase with each passing day..odds on which I would not bet!

SO tomorrow we take the tour of the kindergarten and Madi’s biggest question is will we go out to a mommy Madi lunch afterward?  I love her so much!  And yes we will go to lunch!

As I continue to watch the days pass, perspective has become a big part of my life.  I agonize watching the calendar change on one hand and on the other the talks of Kindergarten make me realize that by the time school starts the surgery will be 2 months past and recovery well underway.  Time..what a wonderfully frightening thing!

I am grateful for my beautiful girls who both went to school today with a smile on their faces and for the great work out I finally got motivated to do this morning!

Random thoughts

Sluggish today…it is grey and chilly out after a few days of sunny 80 degree weather. Hard to get going.  Sitting and listening to Megan practice piano before we go to the bus stop.  Beauty and the Beast right now.  She plays so beautifully!  She always wanted to play.  I can remember a tiny Megan about 3 years old asking if she could play piano.  My answer then was sure while wondering where she would come up with something like that.  By age 4 , it continued so we bought an electronic keyboard for her birthday.  She would sit and hit the keys pretending to perform for us.  At 5, she was able to finally get lessons.  We rented a piano after 6 months then purchased it at 1 year.  She played in her first recital last June at 6 years old playing Mozart.  This year she will be playing Fur Elise by Beethoven.  She is just so beautiful in all of her 7-year-old glory playing like someone much more experienced.  Of course a you tube video will be posted just like last year!

I am so tired.  Was up late looking into the different character meals at Disney World.  I also added some links to the sidebar of the page.  The first is the breast cancer risk assessment tool.  It is very easy and quick to answer but extremely important.  The other is from the breast cancer site and claims to offer free mammograms for a simple click.  The advertisers pay the cost.  I figure it is worth the click if indeed it could help someone who otherwise may not be able to have the screening.  Early detection saves lives..period! The last addition is a link that shows the proper way to perform a breast self exam.  This is how I have always found my lumps.  No one knows your girls better than you!

Take control of your own health!