Tag: family

New year same as the last

It is 11am and I am fully ready for this day to end!  Never good right?  I finally talked to the doctor and wish I never had.  I can not say that I am in the least bit surprised but the ultrasound was all bad news.  Not only was there no improvement the news has grown darker.  To start with my ovarian complex cyst on the left is still there and now has a buddy on the right.  The doctor still does not feel that this is a huge concern but is ordering a CA125 which seems to be blood work to help detect ovarian cancer.  Hopefully the blood work shows no issue and we will be left with repeating the ultrasound yet again in a few months.

So, it could end there but hell why would it?  Seems that this ultrasound also picked up two cysts just chilling out on the lining of my uterus. She also feels these are probably nothing to worry about but put it all together add in the recent prophylactic mastectomy and cancer markers then use the word “probably” and my nerves are shot. I guess a few drinks before the bus stop is not advisable.

Thankfully they have gotten me in next Thursday for a biopsy and I will get the blood work as soon as I receive the script.

I will do my best to continue positive thoughts.

I suddenly feel very old

Dinner conversation with the girls when their father is not around is never boring.  When he is at the table things tend to be a bit more subdued but tonight he had a conference call and was in his office.   Before we sat down to dinner, Madison and I downloaded a few read along books to her iPad.  While at dinner I asked her if she had listened to them and if they were good.  She looked me in the eye and began to explain that yes, the book about the Hamsters was very good.  There was a boy and a girl hamster who grew up together, and over time fell in love got married and began to fight crime together.

Somewhat stunned, I finished chewing my chicken.  In my head I thought that I should really do a better job and reviewing things before downloading them for my 6-year-old.  The pictures seemed very cute and gave no clue of the crime fighting career.  As I finished a small drink of my water I looked at Madison, who herself was now chewing and asked simply “Really?” At this simple question both of my children laughed at me.  Madison once again looked me in the eye and said, “of course not Mom, I have not even looked at that one yet.”

Megan, as if seizing an opportunity to pounce on me while I was off-balance, proceeds to tell me that all of the kids in her class will have boyfriends/girlfriends by sixth grade. I turned my head slighty to my 8-year-old and asked why she would say such a thing.  She proceeds to explain to me that there were already 3 “relationships” in her class although one was “rocky”.  No no no!

My answer to both was simple, get dressed we are going to Karate!

I suddenly feel very old!

If I think positive maybe I could strike it rich

think_positiveTomorrow I expect to receive a call with the results of my ultrasound.  I of course am hoping to hear that all is good and I can finally move forward from this 2 year-long medical black cloud.  I will think positive thoughts and hope for the best!

Thursday is another big day.  I am back in Madison’s classroom to help out with journal writing.  The first time in the class was before Christmas and it was eye-opening.  The goal is to get them to write a 2-3 word sentence using their “kid writing”.  Write the word the way they hear it.  Well let’s just say it was something.  A few who just looked at me wanting me to spell it for them or the others who thought it was cool that Madi’s mommy was there so they were totally distracted.  The attention span on some is really short lol.  Madison loves that I am coming again and that is all that matters!  I will be in there every other week until the end of the year I believe.  I hope this week goes a bit better!

bamazon2_480x250SO I am sitting here watching the History channel and the show Bamazon where some construction workers from Alabama have headed into the Amazon jungle to search for gold.  There are several of these shows on now and all are basically the same premise.  A group of people who are already financially drained head into an extreme area, jungle, Bearing Sea, Alaska, and attempt to strike it rich.  People (I) watch because you pull for them hoping that someone will hit it big but of course are not surprised when not only do they not hit it big but more often end up in even deeper debt that they started out with.   money_cant_buy_happiness_button-p145065082887098881en8go_400

My kids laugh at me for watching these shows, more because I believe they find them boring.  I guess It is just holding on to some kind of hope that anyone who tries hard enough can strike it rich.  I mean, we all know the saying money can’t buy happiness but is can sure pay the bills and that makes me pretty happy!